The Portal

[Reaper]

The reason I find Renato's story fascinating is that I have seen a portal similar to his description in conjunction with involvement with greys when I was a kid.

I remember jumping out of bed one night fully clothed and full of excitement, putting my shoes on and dashing out of the house with a huge leap off the steps and a mad dash to the street because I was going to a meeting with the greys.

Sure enough, they were there at the end of the street in the large yard in front of my friends house. It was something like the secret school kind of thing mentioned by Whitley Striber. I call it "Space Cadet School." I only remember this one event but I recall being aware that we had met like this several times before.

About half a dozen local kids were there and we were lined up at attention while one of the greys asked for volunteers for a mission. When no one volunteered, all the greys stopped what they were doing and looked right at me. One of them wasn't wearing the hood that I assume is a protective mask and not a grey's actual features. He had brown wrinkled skin and a scowl on his face. It was clear they expected me to go, and were displeased that I hadn't stepped forward, so I volunteered reluctantly saying something to the effect I will do it but I didn't think I was ready. (I didn't feel confident in myself to take on the responsibility, nor knowlegeable enough)

The next thing I remember is standing in front of a landed ufo at some distant place we had been brought to with a bunch of humans in blue military fatigues and some military vehicles nearby. It was myself and a friend who had been brought here. We were told the lander had crashed and there were people trapped inside and we were to go in and bring them out. Well, this made no sense to me why they couldn't do it themselves. The lander was a white saucer shaped craft with an entrance ramp. (other landers I've seen have small metal foldout steps instead.) It didn't look like it had crashed. It was just sitting there, but it was low to the ground, like maybe it hadn't deployed any landing gear.

The two of us went inside to see a center raised circular area with a moving misty like area above it of blue light that was emitting bolts of lightning that were striking some sort of fallen beam or something. If I remember this correctly, there was a white, dark-haired male human in a blue uniform in there near the door and a white woman with strawberry-blond hair, also wearing a blue uniform, crouched in terror in the back. I don't remember much about the man as I was focused on the woman and the blue light that looked dangerous. I crawled on all fours under the spar to where she was and gave her my hand, which she took. I think she was surprised to see kids in there. I couldn't take her out holding her hand but I got her off her ass and we crawled out on all fours. I don't remember anything I may have said.

Later, we were standing next to a grey and watching what was going on while waiting to be taken back. I was completely confused by this whole scenerio as it didn't make any sense why we were there. I sensed that the grey babysitting us was young and new on the job so figured there was a chance he would answer if I asked him a question. I asked him, "What is this all about?", gesturing around with my hand. After a moment, he said, "This will effect the future." After a pause adding, "Where were from." This didn't enlighten me, though it suggests they may be time travelers, but at least he said something since most greys don't say squat about anything.

Then I had a vision. I think it may have been transmitted by the grey but I'm not sure if it came out of my own mind or not. I saw the inside of an old-time looking bar with a rough wooden floor and unpainted walls that I believed to be a place in the far future. I was standing near a disk shimmering around the edges with a bluish light in the middle of the room. Inside the disk was the a scene of the scenerio with the downed lander. In the bar, across from the disk/portal, was a dark-haired male human sitting backwards on a bar stool, looking at the portal. He was wearing a grey or tan loose fitting 40's style suit and wearing a fedora like hat. Then I was back at the site still confused and trying to fathom what the vision meant. I don't remember anything else.

One thing I find interesting is that when I was in Atlantis (I believe it was a past life) shortly before the catclysm and on a ship in the federation fleet, I wore a navy blue uniform similar to what the humans were wearing though I can't remember enough details to say wether they were exactly the same design or not. There were greys on those ships who ran the stuff that required psychic abilities like the hyperdrive and the spherical room where they used phychic abilities the scan the space near the ship in place of a radar. There was also a humanoid reptilian race around at that time who used portal technology to travel long distances instantaneously though I don't remember time travel being associated with it, though I guess it's implied due to the nature of it's function. Anyway, the point I was getting at is I think the humans involved with this group wear blue uniforms. Does anyone know of any information regarding non-terestrial humans wearing blue uniforms?

[Renato Ferraz]

First of all, great story. I have a question, these blue suits, were they skin tight or earth military style with lots of pockets, also, a corroboration to some of what you describe has been described by Bonnie Jean Hamilton which is amazing if you are not familiar with her book, invitation to the self, and a friend of mine named shep who I met through her also describes similar stuff.

[Reaper]

They were military style fatigues or BDU like, not mottled, but a solid dark blue. I don't remember if they had a lot of pockets or insignia or not, it was a long time ago.

I haven't heard of Bonnie Jean Hamilton, but I'll check out her book.

[Ned Alic]

great story man, it does ring a bell to the type of stuff that bonnie jean hamilton did.

Also the part about the school that you went to at night. I have read a book called Verges of the Weird: A Chronicle of Alien Encounters by Kenny Bakeman. IN it he describes the exact same "school", like the kids were being recruited. I suggest you check it out, his site has been down for almost 2 years now, i have no idea what has happened, it almost seems like he vanished...but ill send you the link in a message...

http://www.scribd.com/doc/13739169/Verges-

http://stores.lulu.com/verges

[Reaper]

Thanks for the Verges link Ned, I'll check it out.
As far as Mrs. Hamilton's story, She remembers a lot of stuff while I remember very little. While it feels like there is a lot of stuff I don't remember, and it can be inferred there was some sort of training going on, I don't remember it and don't see any similarities in what I do. Nor do I recall any negative secret government encounters like being chased by psychics. I do however, remember a few training like dreams involving human brotherhood like guys, but not greys. She also suggests it's all on an astral level but many of my experiences have a definite physical realm component to them as well. In my dreams, I do stupid stuff, while she does amazing stuff in hers. Although, her "Yoda" guy description is very similar to the "3 wise men" I remember. I don't recall hearing beeping, however I have heard a single beep numerous times and I have felt I was being watched by the greys over long periods of time like she mentions.

To be honest, I remember hardly any detail about what goes on in an abduction once I get aboard the ship. I rememer mostly the coming and going and some things done off ship. As far as greys in dreams, the little I recall is them pretending to be someone else or as invisible observers that I happen to notice sometimes.

There are some similarities in other things. Like her, I spent many years practicing all kinds of flying in OBE like dreams and we seem to have similar thoughts about Carlos Casteneda's work. To me it reads like a guidebook on how to move the physical self into the astral realm. Which is how I interpret what Don Juan accomplished when he "left the world". Her "star people" seem to have been teaching her something similar.

I agree with her in that I believe there are a whole bunch of things going on in reality that we don't perceive from our physical forms and mental limitations, that what we perceive is based on perspective. I don't know what determines perspective, some say energy level, whatever that is. It seems other entities can affect our perspective, allowing us to perceive things we don't normally perceive. I believe we are multidimensinal beings with our other selves having a different perspective, such as the astral body, dreaming body or parallel selves and that all we experience in dreaming or whatnot really exists in reality though we may not remember it correctly or be able to perceive/influence or be influence by it because of our perspective. She has an idea that effects on these other bodies can manifest in the physical body such as scars or implants but I'm not so sure about that idea. I think the influencer and influenced have to be close, perspective wise, for that to happen.

It could be there are more similarities than I realize, and it's just that I don't remember enough shit to be able to tell.

She is pretty though. She looks a lot like my sister.

[Reaper]

As far as Verges, I don't remember any reptilians in this life, nor MIBs. I don't remember any hostile or sexual abductions. There was a point in his encounters where he was aware of how his future life would play out. I don't remember how I came to know it, but during an encounter in normal conciousness I became aware of the details of my future life (now forgotten). The greys seemed sympathetic towards my despondancy over it. I felt this life was a mission I volunteered for even though it sucked majorly, but somebody had to do it. I don't know why though. Wether I knew that or was made to believe that, I don't know either.

[Ned Alic]

in time we will all get our questions answered...i guess its just the waiting that kills ya ehh?

Why do you think the greys seemed sympathetic? I heard that most of the beings out there kind of already knew their future lives, and have learned to deal with it for the better outcome of all. Guess we just cant deal with it yet...especially in this F%^## up world..

[Reaper]

Do they know the future or is it only some of them? I remember during the time of Atlantis being on a cruiser in a red star system that was invaded by a novel and unexpected use of a portal to send comandos and gas onto the ship. If the eggheads knew the future, why would they send that ship in to be sacrificed? I remember seeing the hyperdrive blowup while watching the ship on a monitor. (2 Eggheads/greys ran those things and I knew they blew it up, killing themselves in the process, to scuttle the ship so the enemy (human looking reptilians) couldn't use it.) Lots of people died on that ship, including eggheads. There were only 3 survivors that I'm aware of.

I call it a cruiser though light-carrier might be a more correct term since I remember it as having 2 hangers. I know it definately had one hanger full of landers since that's where I was when the attack started.

You may not believe the previous scenerio is real, but it was very real to me. I remembered acutely for many years the feeling on the side of my face where it hit the sand whenever I would think about the part where I had to kill one of those comando dudes with my bare hands.

Yes, there was sand on the ship. The ship had 4 domed shaped recreation modules jutting out the top of the ship. Each one simulated different terrain environments as well as functioning as rather large emergency lifeboats. The one we ended up in simulated a desert that we could ride go-cart looking dune buggys in.

ok, I'm rambling on about something unrelevant. What I meant to post was about the scenerio in which I knew my future. It felt like a reunion of old friends. We seemed to have talked about a lot of stuff. Perhaps my despondency was a normal and expected reaction, for them, which is why I felt they were sympathetic. One of the short dudes, he was the same height as me at the time, placed his forehead against mine causing a bright light to flash in my mind. It had no descernable effect that I could tell, but it was in my mind at that time something he chose to do spontaneously on his own initiative to help.